What is this?

(This is my brief explanation of why the heck I started a stupid blog. It can always be found in the tab on labeled "What is this?" on the side.)


 I started this blog because I wanted to start a blog. Not a very good reason and I didn't even know what I wanted to talk about other than Catholic stuff. Yes, I'm Catholic and I'm not sorry...too much? I don't know. I'm new at this.

     I started actually doing some thinking when I needed a title though and I was going through various puns with latin words and random things that have to do with the. Church in general as well as specifically within the Mass. This is very sad and I found out that not only do I lack a certain creativity, but also that I have a super cheesy sense of humor. While this finding changed my self-image slightly, I also came upon an idea that, while extremely simple, forced me to take another look at my life from a different direction.

     I go to church. Yeah, every Sunday I'm usually at either St Elizabeth Ann Seton in Houston or St Mary's in College Station. I go to church and I take myself way to seriously. I go to church and sometimes/usually you can't tell that I do other than the 40daysforlife.com power band and wrist rosary I wear. I'm great with doing holy stuff at church and retreats but can my everyday acquaintances tell that I go to church? Can my professors? Can the people I wait in line behind? Can the people in the car next to me? Can anyone?

     Maybe...and I'm not ok with a "maybe". I want the Spirit to sink into the depths of my being and I want to radiate the light of truth that Christ is. I want to be overflowing with so much joy that everyone gets cheered up by being near me. I want to be so close to God that by merely being with people inspires personal conversion. Problem... I want that for me right now, not for God's glory.

     That's the problem with all of us who "go to church". That phrase has been watered  down so badly by sinners like me that it doesn't mean much anymore. I want my life to help change that.

     So what this blog is going to be (just "is", for those reading it in my future, which is the present for them, and both are God's present) is an ongoing collection of thoughts, experiences, references, annoyances, rants, opinions, people, problems, praises and prayers that I encounter and feel can offer something to you, the random reader (and probably my mom and her sisters who will get a kick out of this). It will most likely be very random to you, but I'm ADD. That's a good excuse right? I can't promise that it will be enjoyable, intelligent, poetic, controversial or even thought provoking but I'll do my best trying for all of those.

Peace,
Jacob